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January 25

天气好...下雪了.

 
 
 
又是一个学期开始了, 这半年来,我沉默了许多...看日志的数量,就可以看出.
沉默,不是因为没有话说,是说的话,都用心来记了.
再看看日志内容,少了埋怨,少了"口号",少了让人担忧的语句...
我也不会给自己说我长大了,不会说我要坚强了,不会说我懂事,不会说我不难过,不会说我要努力了,不会说我要学习了,不会说我会好好过了,不会说我又难过了,不会说我又伤心了,不会说我又恨你了,我不会说我又无所谓了,......
 
我不知道,当时是为什么不说了, 但是现在我懂了......3个字,就是--- "没意思". 
没意思,说与不说,写与不写,都一样. 你该难过的时候,还是要难过;该懂事的时候就会懂事;该努力的时候就一定要努力;该坚强就要坚强;该学习就学习........
我没说这些话的半年来,我却十足地做到了!!!我坚强了,我不迷茫了,我认真学习了,我努力打工了.我换来了真正地: 成长!
我说这些话地时候,是有底气勒...我晓得.
 
说来说去,事情就那么简单...... 听天由命,但人定胜天.
 
 
我有一点看淡咯,可能是因为我知足了.
朋友.......朋友......啊....我的好朋友...我知道.
还有一句话,叫做:日久见人心.
我不说出来,不代表我不懂.我不瓜,我也不傻.
朋友.......朋友......啊...我的好朋友....我懂,我懂.
 
 
别把自己太当人物了. 我想把这句话,给你,你,你,你,你,你,你,你,.....也给我自己说.
什么事情都会变的.别太自以为事了.脚踏实地的做自己该做的事情吧.
 
 
想让自己继续有一颗知足的心.
 
 
 
August 21

妈, 你看不到! 哈哈...

 
 自从我妈买了电脑,从来我QQ 空间得最近来访第一人,必定是她! 哎... 有些东西 妈 你看不得! 哈哈....
 
  回学校半个月了,我再一次回到了学校厨房刷盘子,我第一个打工得地方,不...应该算第二个咯.第一个挣钱得地方是带娃儿,5块钱/小时. 又到食堂,一切还是很亲切. 老板认得到我,连那里得机器也认识我. 输SSN得时候,自动显示我得名字.嘿,安逸!
  厨房工作,尤其轻松.虽然干得是洗盘子,好像见不得人.但是性价比绝对最高. 工作量少,但可以挣得钱却不少. 特别是有些时间段,处于无人阶段.等于是在后面闲散状态. 但是我却不知道为什么, 尤其在食堂. 静下来得时候,这种静让我一下子脑壳里面要想很多很多东西....
 
  原来我才发现,其实最近我内心还是相当挣扎...很多事情,真的不宁静. 有的时候很烦很烦. 但是却鼓励自己说,选择得事情就已经是事实.我只能往前走. 对有些人,也是. 以前,感觉自己缩手缩脚.害怕得罪这个,得罪那个勒. 可是现在这个社会, 人类之间得摩擦, 不能避免就是不能. 我晓得自己笨,从来都是.处理人际关系更是瓜! 只是我敢说,我从来没有对不起身边任何一个人...
 
  试图给自己一个定义,是怎样得一个人. 好人?坏人?小孩?大人?蠢人?聪明人?穷人?有钱人?.. 当然,我是女人! 哈哈...笑一个! 从不会记恨某个人,从不会小看某个人;从不会恶意伤害某个人...但是我学会了,看不起某些人.看不起那些愚昧得人,看不起那些伤害我,或者试图伤害我得人!所以我觉得我变咯... 我迷惑得是,这个变化是好事还是坏事?
 
  我还是要告诉自己,无论怎样...方向是一直向前的...用尽全力把烦恼都抛在脑后... 迷惑也许是一时得,就像鼓励自己得时候,信念永远那么坚定;也许这种迷惑也会伴随一生,毕竟再怎么清醒的人,也有会有怪罪自己愚蠢的时候.
 
  我还是想勉励自己, 踏踏实实的做一个人. 日久,它就会见人心!
 
 
 妈..杂子喃? 哈哈..你看不到!
April 22

Augustana Boston

in the light of the sun, is there anyone? oh it has begun... oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed, this world you must've crossed...you said... you don't know me, you don't even care, you don't know me, you don't wear my chains... essential and appealed, carry all your thoughts across an open field, when flowers gaze at you...they're not the only ones who cry when they see you you said... you don't know me, you don't even care, you don't know me, you don't wear my chains... she said i think i'll go to boston... i think i'll start a new life, i think i'll start it over, where no one knows my name, i'll get out of california, i'm tired of the weather, i think i'll get a lover and fly em out to spain... i think i'll go to boston, i think that i'm just tired i think i need a new tow, to leave this all behind... i think i need a sunrise, i'm tired of the sunset, i hear it's nice in the summer, some snow would be nice... boston...where no one knows my name..
March 29

L.O.S.T?!

 
 
 haha... I know that I just got a sidetrack, but I know wat I should do. Just like they  say.." When we no longer can change the situation, we change ourselves."   So, that's it. Haha...
 
 
And I really want to thank you ---"SSP." During Spring Break, you teach me a lot, and encouraged me a lot. Also it changed me a lot anyway. Although just few days,but I wont forget.
 
 
I am enjoying my life in UC.
 
 
hahahhaha... BE HAPPY... hahhahahah....
March 27

New photos

 
 
Here are some photos about ISLC, which is International Students Leadship Conference. I enjoyed so much.
 
 
 
"Thanks god "for giving this chance to me.
 
 
 
 
 
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March 11

Thanks a lot

             
 
            These days, I have been feeling very depressed.
             Always feel very tired, but have nothing to do.
             However, there are lots of friends around me, encouraging me to help me.   Cheer me up.
            
            YOU  GUYS  ARE  AWESOME---
 
            When Jackson knew that I was unhappy, he took me to race
            Lisa, she bought my favorite food--Chicken Nuggest for me.
            Britney, she is so cute. She said something what I used to tell her the truth.That's funny. urm... I know the truth, but still can  not control my emotion.
            Cherly, she just be quiet, but around me. Encouraging me.
            Also, there are many new friends from University of Selam . We played many many games, such as MaJiang, Bowling,Pool,Printball,Basketball,and the "killer" game. We do have fun.
            In addition, GeZi,QiuQiu, BANBAN,6Hang,Bird,Huoxing........ they always accompany me as well. While those people are in the other side of the world,the also concern me. Whenever,Whatever, Wherever...
 
                     LOVE YOU GUYS... 
March 04

HI

Dear Spaces,I am Back Again...
 
hey yo,wat's up everyone?!
 
I'll try to write English ONLY
 
 
 
!!!!SUPER RETURNS!!!!
 
 
 

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